英语翻译那些都是真的吧,我想也许我也不会深入努力的克制自己 对自己说“无所谓的!”可有的时候真的会狠矛盾我不希望有另外的

those should be true。
i do not think i would be involved deeply
and try to control myself with great effort
with telling myself "whatever!"
however
sometimes
things are really contradictory
i do not want anyone else to share this motion with me
i am eager to know
what am i in your heart?
lover or wife?