英语翻译I had this realization that no one would wave a magic wa

英语翻译I had this realization that no one would wave a magic wand and turn me into what i thought i could be .So I would have to proscribe every single aspect of my career,from my logo to the clothes that I wear.I relized that it was that vulgar and you had to spell things out that much.主要是最后一句的意思,前面的是帮助理解语境.