Sometimes,I think,if we don't have that,will we now are ordi

Sometimes,I think,if we don't have that,will we now are ordinary friends?Will friends be better than now relationship,is it more suitable for us?The words come so suddenly,without any stage,let me by surprise too late to consider,midnight people quiet,I also think,three years of time,to try to a ideal university will better than to love a person without future actually?Can I really do a quiet reading,while the love you?future,I dare not too much to consider it 谁帮忙大概翻译一下这段话的意思.